Daughter, his wife received a phone children

 Shows a family of three days of vacation they will come back with us over Mid-Autumn Festival, which made me very excited and very happy wife children than I am excited. After graduating from college since her daughter, has been here over one hundred kilometers away from a city job, and then marry and have children, the beginning of Shihai come often, but since having kids that will come back once or twice a year. Yes ah! Have their own lives to live, we can not all day around the home. Not to mention his son, moved out after marriage to two years ago to buy a new house. This does not, a free, he would often go to their Lao Zhangren home run, but rather little attention to his own parents. I'm so old days, my life is boring, it can be said is dead boring, and sometimes makes me feel depressed. 
also like to eat, and to make dumplings.

lights in the room seemed a little tired, full of pale light, the shape of this tired, maybe just as I thought, I have been tired to spend it close to the end of life every day.

dumplings good! Delicious dumplings, I love it.

But I can not remember the specific time of the last to eat dumplings, but I can still remember more clearly the case.

a day off after noon, the sky to float ox hair to the rhythm of the rain. His wife took to the streets to buy food, and I am a person stay at home. My ears are not back, my eyes do not flower. I use basic skilled hands, the wheelchair moved to the window, looking out buildings ranging in height from the squeeze of the sky, gray, a case of going to rain. Did not think this situation really was I got it right, such as ox hair thin strands of rain since then the slightest squeeze of the sky flakes, and has a very rigid, uncompromising tenacity children. Under it! Under it! You have to, I a twilight of old can they do?

placed in my hands quiet unaware of the leg, I leg muscles than any other part of my body to be shrinking, the serious degradation, place hands down, leaving behind only the bones, I have not feel pain. These were originally part of my body, but now, they mercilessly away from me, although still attached to my body, but it became my life, and even the soul of the burden. It makes me feel my body has always been clumsy,bailey UGG boots, and it is heavy.

children his wife bought the beef, the kind of good with a meat slicer cutter Lanrou, I understand his wife children's mind. More than a year, she has been changing the pattern to do what I used to like to eat the food, just like the Dayton dumplings, and I remember kids like a greedy, like silly children looked at his wife in the kitchen constantly busy, children looked at the hand of his wife will be a skilled juggler wildly dough into small dumplings, do not smile back when sitting in a wheelchair to see my grinning. At a time when television, is there a song wafting I can think of the most romantic thing is slowly getting old with you until we can not go anywhere where the old, you still think of me as palm Po ... ... old age, but unfortunately in the arm with each other flowing through the wind and rain fleeting.

every morning, his wife of nearly seventy years of age the children have all the strength, in order to send me to a wheelchair, and good in my hands all right, but also the role of the number of starting point, otherwise, I do not know if she can not do that. She is a woman, but a woman of nearly seventy years old, the old woman's body is weak, and his wife children naturally no exception. I got a wheelchair, she will be me on the toilet, and from the wheelchair and carry me down on the toilet, I watched her painstakingly put my clothes faded, and then wheeled out of the door, quietly in the bathroom door waiting for me. I easily finished, cough a cough, she pushed open the door, and has done much to hold on my wheelchair, promoting the bathroom to touch a mouthwash to help me, I picked up the cup began to brush your teeth, and she then took a basin at this time gently on my legs have been unconscious, quietly standing by, silent smile at me a bit clumsy action. After brushing my teeth, she drained the water and began to wash my face every time I want to do it all yourself, but she persisted in his refusal. I also had to give up and let her wait.

I've always been this way every day, but my condition was growing worse, slowly, I found myself out of bed and get up there difficult. My lumbar spine following parts have no consciousness, and I do not even know what time the stool, what time will urinate, and occasionally so I sleep in the bed, found under the body is full of nastiness, the room exudes a difficult smell the odor, the only clear thought I was the only brain.

can not take care of my toilet.

later, I began to sleep, perhaps because of age, perhaps because this one can be called the body Bingqu. My life began to take before the end of suffering. Fortunately, I goes on every day vicissitudes children from his wife's face to see a smile, which made me somewhat relieved, but also a good number of sleepless nights I can be in the candle against the wind like the last days or less nostalgia.

Since the start of his own to the bathroom can not take care of themselves, and I faced the life of this world began to question less and less. This live, what are we going? What is the point?

I am in a morning, and finally summon the courage of his wife said, you still get some diazepam to help me now! Can not sleep at night, very tough.

my mind clear, his wife understand my heart, when the night falls, she helped me go to bed, stop talking with me, our memories, sons and daughters of the past, as well as non-stop trouble twitter grandchildren. I know she did not want to make me feel lonely. And I also do not want her tired, during the day had been very hard. I ate stability, pretending to sleep, she will no longer speak, and quiet sleep in the side. In fact, we all know, do not sleep. A stable dose of medication for long as I do for patients, it is basically no effect.

secret as long as my heart is not on the line she found to be sufficient.

, hastened back to say: , and through childhood, youth, middle age, to old age, as we are now, is it not start from the life of a day to the next loess ah! not it? But you said also makes sense that my life is exciting enough , are wonderful to lie all day in the wheelchair can not move. It can not move it, have you serve me, cooking and cleaning, client-side urine feces, I was also upset ah! > wife children to look, know that I am guilty of heart disease, and quickly said, ignoring my look.

the stability and out from the paper in two pieces, put in his hand.

his wife looked at me after eating the pill, got up off the lights on the bed said, . Mid-Autumn Festival on the eve of the moon, turn off the lights the moment, separated by curtains from the window abruptly squeezed in, pale pale, very scary. Occasional autumn wind blew the branches swaying in the yard, the huge shadow in the curtain on a flash of You. I looked out the window of a fixed set You flash in the shadows, and feel their thoughts, the body slowly began to numb, and even the ears were his wife breathing even more blurred.

I finally fall asleep.

I listened carefully, this voice came from the foot. I started moving his hands a foot of the ruins of the block of rubble, long, long time. But the foot of the ruins were once there has never been reduced, but more and more. I began to anxiously up, I turn my head around shouting, I am helpless his feet and looked all looked to find themselves do not know when exposure to an unfamiliar environment. I started looking for a way out, surrounded by walls, crumbling, I can not go out. In front of a wall not far shorter than the others seem to some, I rushed past, for over the wall out, I just climbed the wall, a sudden burst of the earth was moving, the wall collapsed. I felt a sharp pain in the lower body, 
I slowly recovered consciousness, children, and sleep!

this time window, the moonlight flow of silver, the shadows on the curtains are still swaying. I know, tonight, I am going to sleep again.

this dream, I've done do not know how many times, is not I do not remember the number, but remember the times I have no patience, again and again.

around his wife's breathing slowly become homogenized. I'm in the dark, cloudy eyes have been wide open, his thoughts back that afternoon two years ago, that took my legs at noon, that sunny afternoon.

my life, there are many days is the memorable, except remember to this day I do not dare to remember.

2008 to May 12 at noon, as usual, retirement home, I do nothing, which is normally in conjunction with other old men playing chess under the category.

this day, I did not go out at noon, his wife accompanied the grandson of a nap, I sat on the sofa reading the newspaper. Black newspaper in the old line by line becomes very striking flower microscope. More than two years later, I can not remember the content of the newspaper written, but I remember that situation. Slowly the sun shining outside the earth, not a trace of wind, and even walked the streets from time to time issued by the roar of the vehicle also appears weakly.

is such a noon, his wife and grandson of a quiet nap in bed, I quietly sat on the sofa reading the newspaper.

is one such afternoon, I suddenly felt dizzy, the dizziness is creating such violent shaking the house. My brain flashed an idea - an earthquake.

subconsciously I ran into the bedroom, at which point his wife and grandchildren have not yet awakened. I have no time to wake them, I jump into bed, his wife with their children and grandchildren cover your body. Then the house on top of squeak or gurgle to at this moment, his wife woke up, it felt this violent shaking.
so I woke up again, it was already lying in a hospital bed. I slowly began to recover consciousness, I looked carefully around well after seeing his son, daughter, son-grandchildren are still around the beds around, except not see his wife. 
I did not know he lay in bed, how long, I just feel like sleeping for a long time. Still later, found himself in the waist area without consciousness. Listen to them, I lay in bed a whole day in the wake of ten, and this awakening is derived from his wife clinging to the doctor over and over again in mitigation, and begged them not to give up.

eleven days before the accuracy of the pressure piece of prefabricated panels in my lumbar spine, and will result in my lumbar spine fracture. Said the doctor,UGGs, the patient's vital signs have disappeared, to persuade his wife to give up now! His wife persisted in his refusal, when he sent in the knees when the doctor cried. So at the doctor office and I ran back and forth at both ends of beds, a full ten days did not sleep a wink. Perhaps God was moved by it! So I retrieve a life, but forever lost both legs.

more than a month, I left the hospital.

government sent a wheelchair, and I and his wife have been housed in temporary structures in the activities of the board room. Those days, people can not take your sorrow, as long as the living, all our compatriots who lost their lives in prayer for the blessing. I even very fortunate, even while we breathe, but still alive.

the end of 2009, I and his wife placed the victims live in newly built building.

due to their own health reasons, we live in the first floor, which is no doubt that our lives a lot easier. With the days of the disaster go away, and healthy people may gradually faded away in the depth of that disaster, I work hard to force yourself to forget that day, but every night, deep in the dream it mercilessly I will be tortured again and again. By this time, the same that have plagued me and my body, my muscles had atrophied legs, and slowly became a skin, baggy wrapped in old bones have been on.

I know there are shrinking along with my heart, my brain, my lungs, and even my thoughts. I can not stand his wife every day to clean my filthy excrement out. Also experienced a fleeting vicissitudes of his wife's face goes round the original, in addition to a road gully outside, look like the original has been found.

I know her I can not afford to pay for all this.

2010 Mid-Autumn Festival Ruqierzhi.

his wife woke up early, and I up. And the past, she got dressed for me, after me from all the bulbs replaced the dirty clothes into the water, the excretion of bed late at night I would bowl one by one to clean up the dirt, then I hold into the wheelchair, I silently in a wheelchair at her quilt carefully to replace the sheets, without any blame, has been the case, as if it is her duty, she should clean up the filth of my discharge material, right and proper, without a doubt.

began face, and she gave me to wash, rinse and then let me. I feel good today, probably because Mid-Autumn Festival, perhaps because her son is about to see, and grandchildren, perhaps because such a clear sky.

out at this time, the sun has already climbed the mountain, bright, golden, just as I feel now.

wife started early, a rice cooker to cook the porridge. She pushed the wheelchair into the living room side table, rice cooker lid on that hole, the positive She started cleaning, I looked at her quietly, I know, eating breakfast, she should wash the sheets just replaced from the bed quilt. At this point I think I look a bit blurred. Presumably this is accompanied by the definition of life, probably this is the phase in the wet, whom the best interpretation. Person's life, perhaps not only the need for mutual understanding and mutual trust, but also helped each other with each other calm and gentle smile.

this is enough. I have to feel the possession of the bottle inside the bag in the jacket, I think, I was contented, and happy, it should be said there is no catching up. A daughter, a son, not my day, I believe you will have more happiness, will be able to spend their remaining years. Also bound to be easier now to live more, at least every day to people who do not have the stench of nastiness.

enough. True enough, I can have you accompany this life, no regrets.

eight p.m. and more on transit, sunny,Bailey UGG boots, autumn wind blew occasionally, the autumn leaves falling tree in the yard, the wind in the empty Da Zhezhuan children, long lap triumphantly Dangzhao lap, then gently fall to the ground. Daughter, his wife received a phone call to pick them up the road in front, I moved a person to a wheelchair by the window, watching the yellow leaves fluttering pieces trance. Originally, a cycle that simple. Flowers have withered, leaves are falling, then the tree still, but more in the rings around it. Spring comes, flowers still leaves green. And I, but has really come to an end, a cycle will be ended.

I looked blankly out the window and yellow leaves falling, bright sunshine, some intoxicated, some nostalgia. I know that I am not reluctant to these views, but the last lingering moments of life.

they return. First,UGG bailey button, the grandson of primary school have been called out,

I heard, the clumsy move the wheelchair into the living room. Hands down the things her daughter, quickly came to help me, I heard

tears, smiled.

At this point, I saw his wife at the side of his face twisted to one side.

I should be out eat, all eat! br>
I see, clothes, there are shoes, socks, underwear, etc. there.

hungry. Grandchildren also turn on the TV watching cartoons the beginning. TV Jiliguala heard the voice of a group of children.

her squat body, remove the slippers on my feet, took off his socks, rolled up his pants leg to see the two I can call it something like hemp stalk children, and only a leather wrapped After the foot once again began to cry, I know, he not only sorry for his wife, but also sorry for me.

I was very clear that this is something put on my feet, in fact, a waste. Call it what my feet, feel the winter cold, summer can not feel heat, had necrosis, and neither bromidrosis, much less raw dirt, it's that extra connection with a living body, and said plainly, is a dead fixtures.

!,

wife children that cry, scared grandson on the TV did not dare look.

know that earthquakes are so powerful? you better hurry to cook it! children were hungry. Besides, the big feast, the family is not happy, and cry What is it! Am I not still alive? I seem to hear the muttering of the mother and daughter in the kitchen saying something.

animation is wonderful, the grandson provoke laughter from time to time. The atmosphere of the room up more relaxed and happy again.

This is what I want to see and hear.

son said drip grandchildren, said the work in the trivial duties, said the family's emotions. That's enough, really enough, and this is what I most want to know.

After lunch, I went to a toilet, went to the living room, and the son continued to chat. Son said, but basically, I listen. I do not live in the nod, there is such a good care of her daughter's son, I also satisfied.

wife children and her daughter began his work in the kitchen Mid-Autumn Festival dinner. I know, they in the dumplings, my life favorite dumplings. This I know, and beef stuffing, which I know.

out the window the sun began to West Ramp, still blowing slightly in the autumn yellow leaves, yellow leaves that are still in the circle around the Da Zhuozhuan wind, the fluttering like a butterfly.

Mid-Autumn Festival day walking so slowly, and take a very calm, as has been west of the sun.

daughter starts a the top of a plate of dumplings to the table. This is a very rich dinner Dayton have dumplings, fish, a chicken.

This, and a lot of thing have been powerless ... ...

daughter know that I was saying to her, after I put down the chopsticks, I have Picking Up the soup, no more.

After dinner, the sunset is red. I have an excuse to move the wheelchair into one bedroom door was closed after the close out from the long arms of the small bottle, open the bottle, poured all the pills. About a hundred tablets of it! I did not breakdown, this is my accumulation of nearly a year, and could not so many pieces out. I hesitated a moment, the decisive all the pills poured into his mouth. Water on the bedside table, which is prepared long ago. I once again return to the living room

daughter said, it!

looked at her for a son to the side, nodded her into the kitchen.

sunset nice ah!



I nodded, speechless.

western sky at this time, accompanied by a sunset and sunset, the bright clouds to the west the sky very beautiful dress. I know, the setting sun was setting and the sunset is still to be waiting there. Although there is no sunset sunset is not beautiful, but tis still sunset clouds, dusk to Japan, still bright.

wheelchair wheels silent in the quiet way the rotation, no bumps, no sound.

wife children no longer speak, so pushing me. I did not speak, I looked at the chaos down the western sky the sun gradually.

long, long time.

I felt a little tired, I finally sleep ... ...

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